Wishing That

Never regret anything that has happened in your life. It cannot be changed, undone, or forgotten so take it as a lesson learned and move on...

~vanzvanz

Drunken

I just thought of yesterday...
I was sitting tight on my clerical chair.
Concentrating.Connecting myself to the world.
But I have found nothing but a dark clouds --just there, so dark.
I nipped on the coffee in front of me;
feeling the heat beneath my throat.
Suffering lightly from the warmth of it.
Trying to relax and feel free.
I stared closely on my desktop,
Clicking.Surfing.Browsing.
Feeling so high, So Safe.
Still nothing.Still so dark.Still drunken.
Sad.

How Did I Get Here?

If confusion is the first step to knowledge, I must be a genius.

Today is not the typical day for me. I felt so Alone.Unaccompanied.Distracted. So hard to breathe and focus thru things. I’ve never felt like empty deep inside my soul. Maybe I should dig down deeper this time for me to see things more clearly. I told myself a lot of times, Hey! “When you close your doors, and make darkness within, remember never to say that you are alone, for you are not alone”. I must be kidding myself I know. This is a very confusive statement of mine but I’m not confused, I’m just well mixed from my emotional anxiety at this moment. (Laughs).
So I guess, just wanna share my shortlist of thoughts today.

“Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice.”